It is a painful process when you are hurt. River City's, "Pastor Brock Dale Bernstein" spoke of one's identity in Christ.  Brock then spent from mid 2007 to mid summer of 2008 doing his all to rob me of all I had ever worked for including my identity.  The very money God provided for this ministry Brock did his all stealing every last penny of it.  I dealt with the pain knowing I failed God Almighty and was even losing all my faith. Brock robbed me not only financially but emotionally, but I am healing...  I know many out there are hurting too but the only way to truly overcome problems in life is by accepting Jesus into our lives and trusting Jesus and living a godly life.  I am sorry I just am broken too and I don't have all the answers either except like I say having faith Jesus will get us through.  Jasmine I know you are hurting too because of what your parents did.  I know you Jasmine have had a hard time finding God and church and the pastors there failed you too but God is not a failure and I know that you will be reading this because God wants to buy you back and end the generational curse.  God told me to write this for you too.

When someone hurts us we go through a lot of emotions including:

  • Depression and suicidal feelings

  • Anxiety disorders – obsessive-compulsive,  body dysmorphic, panic, and agoraphobia

  • Drug and alcohol addictions

  • Self-esteem and self-image problems

  • Personality disorders

  • Marital and relationship conflicts

  • Eating disorders

  • Psychotic disorders such as bipolar illness and schizophrenia

For me when I lost control of my life I slipped back into mental insanity.  I created many of these sites while mentally insane and highly depressed, but God Almighty reversed the destructive paths I was heading on and healed me.  My body is healing physically, as well as my mind but memories and current circumstances haunt me.  Past pains cannot be forgotten and old wounds don't die slow, but through Jesus Christ we can heal and learn to live again!  
All the pain a person can cause!

God only knows the pain people cause when they don't care.
Life isn't easy nor is it fare.
One cheats robbing your all.
The wicked devour the righteous making them small.
Lord we beg you what is our end?
Lord is our suffering the message you send?
Lord we cry out to you day and night.
Lord we pray to you with all of our might.
Lord is this the life you have given?
We struggle day and night just  to make a living.
Lord we struggle help us somehow.
Lord we plead to you restore us now.

amen...   June 7th, 2014  written by:  Dale Lee Gordon