It all starts with Jesus Christ. God healed me! Tonight is May 2nd 10:46pm 2013 and I am praising the LORD believing on God's promises. Instead of the poor me look what Brock, Todd Jessie Garton and others did to me I am praising God for the blessings. So what in many ways my life was like that of Job. (Job 8:7) Though thy beginning was small, yet thy latter end should greatly increase. (Lam 3:27) It is good for a man that he bear the yoke in his youth. I have had it real rough for most of my life but particularly the past 15 years. God has been showing me different forms of money in my dreams. Last night May 2, 2013 I was given a pallet of gold bars. I have had victory over my demons I fight in the night. Sleeping is now fun rather than scary.
God knows my barns are empty and I have prepared them for the harvest. As I wrote in "How to Recover from a Destroyed Life," sometimes only God can heal you. I asked God for wisdom on how to make money, but that prayer was never answered. Only in an online storefront can I make money and that is my goal. I plan to use the proceeds from my books for helping orphan children and to bless others. I do not plan to make any money from the online book store. That however, takes money and though I have tried I have failed each and every
time. I sit here often scared not knowing how I will make it to the next month however, I refuse to take all the free money. I live strictly off my pension since I am too proud to take government handouts. I figure pension I earned from the Marine Corps and that is what I will live on. As far as my time I spend it preparing these sites for the search engines. I believe God at his Word and I know if he said he would bless me than I will believe him. I just need that blessing soon:
(Heb 11:1) Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
(Heb 11:6) But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.
(Mal 3:10) Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the LORD of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.
(Mal 3:11) And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes, and he shall not destroy the fruits of your ground; neither shall your vine cast her fruit before the time in the field, saith the LORD of hosts.
(Mal 3:12) And all nations shall call you blessed: for ye shall be a delightsome land, saith the LORD of hosts.
Today is June 9th, 2013. I am feeling better about myself and the situation from Brock Dale Bernsein. I feel God allowed my money to be stolen to keep me from making a huge mistake with these sites. I had been going through deep depression and had been suffering from serious mental illness. Reading from the Geneva Bible and especially these study notes provided in the original 1560 Bible, though e-sword uses the 1587 version provided below:
Psa 71:20 [Thou], which hast shewed me great and (p) sore troubles, shalt quicken me again, and shalt bring me up again from the depths of the earth.
(p) As he confesses that God is the only author of his deliverance, so he acknowledges that these evils were sent to him by God's providence.
(Psa 71:21) Thou wilt increase mine honour, & returne and comfort me.
If God allowed all of this to happen He did so because He loves me and knew my heart better than my own. Many times I have shaken my fist even with the middle finger extended at both Brock and God. I have struggled with trying to regain this wealth only to fall back into a deeper pit. I just got a phone call from a good lady friend this morning and she said that she felt God saying I need to let go of this anger toward Brock. I have been carrying it along for far too long and it has been eating me alive. After all Brock Dale Bernstein is not hurt from what he did to me. I need to let go and to let God. That is what I will try my hardest to do from here on out. I know that God will handle this situation far better than I can. God loves us and will not hurt us; at least not more than we can take:
(Heb 12:5) And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:
(Heb 12:6) For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.
(Heb 12:7) If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?
(Heb 12:8) But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.
(Heb 12:9) Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected us, and we gave them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live?
(Heb 12:10) For they verily for a few days chastened us after their own pleasure; but he for our profit, that we might be partakers of his holiness.
(Heb 12:11) Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.